I’m having a day where I’m feeling less nervous about everything, so I wanted to take the opportunity to share my news with everyone. I’m pregnant and into my second trimester! Those of you who were reading last year may remember that my husband and I took a lot of time off from trying to conceive after an early miscarriage. My goal was to figure out what was going on with my health and ensure that everything was optimal before trying to get pregnant again. This is the journey that led me to learn more about my thyroid issues and also to my discovery of the MTHFR gene mutations. And so here we are.
I hope this will also explain why, after a feverish pace of writing since starting this blog almost a year ago, I’ve had to slow way down and haven’t been publishing new articles very often over the last few months. First trimester was difficult, as I am learning they are for most pregnant women, and I’ve had my share of ups and downs already this pregnancy. But so far every doctor’s appointment has been positive and we can only hope that they continue to go well.
We saw our little one bouncing around at the ultrasound last week, appearing comfortable and healthy. There is still the anatomy scan on the horizon and I have to say that I won’t be able to fully exhale a sigh of relief until then. Many women find out that they are pregnant and don’t even think twice that it may not end with a baby. I am extremely positive about how far I’ve come and the strength of this child, but I also spend most of my time speaking with people who have chronic illnesses and perhaps not always the happiest of stories. So I know better. And to be perfectly transparent, I am a constant worrier and have a tendency to keep myself aware of the worst possibilities. Somehow I feel like it gives me comfort and preparation for being able to handle whatever comes my way. I’m like this with all things in life. So staying stress-free is a challenge for me but something I feel like I’ve overcome a bit in the last several weeks. It took me awhile to muster up the courage to even share this news but as I mentioned, I’m feeling really confident today and wanted to take a chance and share some joy and cheer with everyone.
A main reason that I want to do this is for the sake of hope. A little less than a year ago I was sitting across from a self-assured doctor at a fertility clinic who was sure that I would never get pregnant on my own. She pushed some lab results across her desk and told me that if I was much older she would tell me to go straight to donor eggs and IVF. My husband and I refused any interventions. I continued on my quest to heal my body naturally and, with the help of some very wise and talented practitioners I did get better. It’s branded in our psyche now that we have to disconnect from our bodies and go for the quick solutions when we can’t get them to do what we want. Many people don’t have the time or patience to take a time out and embark on the journey to wellness. And thus the naysaying doctors get rich. As I’ve said before on this website, I am not against assisted reproductive technology at all. But not everyone needs it. And I firmly believe that the best outcomes occur for those who use it as a last resort and not as a first line of offense.
We conceived naturally after a few months of trying and I believe we would have had faster success had we both not contracted the flu just before the holidays. Nine months of intense study and healing work took place before we started trying again. I worked with acupuncturists, reproductive endocrinologists, specialty researchers and natural health practitioners to get here. It was probably just as costly as IVF if you include the hours of time that went into learning and coordinating all of our own care. I made a rough estimate at tax time that we’d spent around $5,000 that insurance didn’t pay for last year. It was worth every penny.
The point here is that, whether you are trying to get pregnant or trying to heal yourself from unexplained chronic illness, I firmly believe that the answers are out there. It will require a very open mind and probably some leaps of faith – maybe a bit of luck even – but you can get there. I hope that whatever your goals are you continue to push for them on your own terms and have wild success in getting better. Be sure to celebrate little victories along the way and please don’t ever give up.
I will continue to post throughout the rest of my pregnancy, especially with regards to matters that are relevant to those of us dealing with MTHFR and pregnancy. I am desperately hoping to have a completely natural childbirth and will post on my preparations for that as well for those who are interested. We never know how things will go but I find many common threads among those of us trying to achieve cleaner lifestyles for our families and I look forward to covering more in the arena of home and health.